When you’re in love, you often reassure yourself that people err. You believe that confidence can be restored. And you think that the relationship you shared deserves preservation.
Many of us aren’t prepared for the queasy sensation that arises from being correct yet utterly heartbroken. However, when you’re involved with someone who consistently strays, affection turns into a string of compromises: between your instincts, your limits, and your self-respect.
You might find yourself doing things you never thought you’d do. Justifying the behaviour you once judged in others. Enduring a cycle of betrayal, apology, and repair.
Khloé Kardashian understands that situation very intimately.
Watch: Kim Kardashian shares her thoughts on the Tristan Thompson and Khloe Kardashian cheating controversy.
In the latest installment of
Call Her Daddy
Khloé openly discussed the measures she took to salvage her relationship with serial philanderer Tristan Thompson, as well as the depths of despair she experienced during this tumultuous time.
“The past saw me unable to venture outdoors due to extreme embarrassment about facing others,” stated the 40-year-old during a podcast appearance.
It was clearly something I needed to work through… yet I won’t say I hadn’t reached such a low point… things became that bleak for me.
Khloé has had experiences with infidelity several times before. In 2009, she encountered basketball star Lamar Odom. Following just a couple of weeks of dating, they tied the knot.
In 2013, Khloé initiated the divorce proceedings, reportedly because of the basketball player’s consumption of alcohol and drugs. Subsequently, she found out about his infidelity.
“Lamar made me feel as though I were the only person… I never suspected anything untoward… so I wasn’t aware of any issues… until prior to the DUI incident,” Kardashian revealed to Howard Stern back in 2016.
It’s demeaning on every level, but I discovered he cheated on me most of our marriage. I simply wasn’t aware.
Odom subsequently verified the unfaithfulness to
Us Weekly
, saying, “B-tches and THOTs came out of the woodwork. If there is one thing I regret when I was married, it was having multiple affairs with different women. That wasn’t the stand-up thing to do. I wish I could have kept myd**kin my pants.”
In 2016, Khloé began dating another NBA star, Tristan Thompson. The following year, the pair revealed they were going to welcome their first baby into the world.
Just prior to Khloé giving birth to their daughter, True, in April 2018, Tristan found himself at the center of a cheating controversy.
Even so, the pair worked on restoring their bond. However, the basketball player strayed once more in February 2019, sharing a kiss.
Kylie Jenner’s intimate pal Jordyn Woods
.
Khloé and Tristan would come together again two additional times, as Tristan faced
more cheating allegations
during that time.
In 2022, it was revealed that the pair were anticipating the arrival of their second child through surrogacy, with their son Tatum making his debut in July of that same year. Since then, Khloé and Tristan have permanently gone their separate ways.
Currently, the woman who has two children has shared insights into her previous romantic partnerships, elaborating for
Call Her Daddy
Why did she allow Tristan into the delivery room merely 48 hours after discovering that he had been unfaithful?
She stated that she consented to having cameras in the delivery room because it was important for True, and she decided that Tristan should be present as well since it wasn’t solely about her, and everyone found that hard to accept.
I’m unsure whether that was the correct choice. When speaking with my daughter, I told her ‘Your father was present during your delivery.’ It seemed unwise to finalize anything based solely on fleeting feelings. While I won’t harbor hatred towards Tristan indefinitely, I realize I can’t reclaim that birthing moment. During that period, I undertook numerous actions for my child’s sake.
During her initial days with True, who is currently seven years old, Khloé mentioned feeling lonely at home, constantly being watched by paparazzi. It was around this period that she reignited her relationship with Tristan upon noticing his dedication as a father. However, she remained cautious throughout these experiences.
Khloé mentioned that she always had this uneasy feeling. She also stated that she has no regrets about reconciling with Tristan because they eventually welcomed their child, Tatum.
However, I constantly reminded myself that I could never completely return to that state. He understood this too, and we discussed it frequently. We even went through therapy because of it. I never regained full trust in him, nor did I feel secure around him again. I was simply experiencing such intense hormone fluctuations and feeling very inexperienced at the time.
She added that if they didn’t have a baby together, she doesn’t think she would have stayed with Tristan.
When revealing that she and the basketball player were
expecting their second child,
Khloé mentioned she felt “extremely embarrassed.”
I had already anticipated all the things people would say about me, and deep down, I understood that [the infidelity] was likely to occur once more. It seemed foolish back then. Yet looking back now, I realize those were signs of not feeling secure around him anymore. However, at the time, I couldn’t pinpoint exactly what that sensation was.
Khloé mentioned that the most difficult aspect was disappointing her younger siblings, Kendall and Kylie, since she had consistently emphasized the importance of exiting relationships that were not beneficial for them.
I doubt they’d ever acknowledge that I disappointed them, as I don’t believe they understand the extent of what I witnessed in their expressions.
Khloé likewise discussed reconnecting with her former spouse Lamar after a decade without communication. She described her period with the basketball player as “one of the best chapters in her life,” yet she mentioned that it “cost her a lot of her innocence” too.
“Lamar and I have so much history and to not talk to someone in almost 10 years, and then to be around them, I didn’t know what to expect. I was nervous. He was clearly very nervous,” she recalled of the reunion.
It felt like we were there for four and a half hours… At some point, everything went hazy, and it was just my past traumas resurfacing. I could see myself becoming terse or irritable, which wasn’t who I wanted to be, and I doubt he appreciated that side of me either. Perhaps I even set off certain responses from him unintentionally. However, I’m grateful that this happened between us because there’s still so much left unsaid and undone. Yet, I’m not sure whether facing more of this is what I require at present.
Even with her history, Khloé maintains that she remains a “devoted dreamer” and hopes to walk down the aisle once more someday.
I’m a believer when it comes to love, finding it truly enchanting, and I hold the institution of marriage in high regard. The commitment resonates deeply with me.
At present, though, the Kardashian sibling remains happily unmarried and has been so for more than three years.
She mentioned, ‘I believe I should focus more on personal growth. I am genuinely content. I don’t experience loneliness; none of those feelings bother me. Instead, I feel fantastic,’.
I’ve invested a lot in building up my self-confidence, and it has paid off. However, when it comes to choosing partners, I’m still unsure about how much faith I can put in my own judgment due to my history.
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